However, i found myself being in a situation with all of the above, plus early 20-somethings who im not going to judge and make assumuptions about, but i noticed taht they all were having a difficult time holding conversations of more than a few sentences. Fortunately, I could order food and eat and not have to be chatty. This was a Good ThingTM.
I learned several things tonight. A) I do not find people who are getting drunk, just to hang out and be drunk, much fun to be around. I lose respect for these people very very quickly. B) Freshly minced garlic on french fries is excellent. C) I still dont like being around people who smoke and dont care if they blow it in your face. D) I have very little patience or respect for people who talk over other people...(yes, i know i do this often, its one of the things to work on this year) E) I am not a fluffy-headed (sorry, i am making assumptions, but please forgive me) sorority girl who has no thought in her brain other than what to drink next or how amazingly crappy her step-parent is or which of my friends said x, y, or z and pissed me off. (yes, i know my pronouns are all confused, deal with it) F) The people I was with tonight really made me miss my friends in Atlanta. Intelligent conversation is something i miss in a big big way. G) I lead a sad existence when all i wanted to do was get back to my laptop and blog about this (because this is the closest thing to an intelligent conversation I will have for a week). H) I am lonely. I) I dont like idle chatter, and I especially don't like idle chatter with people I dont know. J) I just looked over this and I realized, i am an intellectual snob. Not sure if this is a good thing or a bad thing.
To defend myself and some of my remarks above...I do like hanging with my friends and family. i enjoy a pleasant time in a relaxed atmosphere, however, I shouldnt feel guilty for not drinking something. (Sorry, sore point, im working through a bit of subconcious peer pressure) (And it helps where there is common ground with which to start talking about.) I enjoy intelligent conversation. Now, im not saying i only enjoy debating politics or anything, but there is definetly more to life than who said what to whom at a party. And if a friend does not want to hang out, at least i am not selfish enough to berate them for trying to place grad school and sanity before going to get a drink with friends at 9:00 at night. (That little overheard conversation (at the table!!) annoyed me no end!)
So anyone with any bright ideas on how to get me to not retreat further into my self-imposed hermitage and not become a 30yo grump, shaking my fist and yelling "Kids these days!" I started working at the bookstore to help with that, and I do enjoy working there and talking to my co-workers...am i being an alarmist? do i just live in a different reality than those i hung with tonight?and not worry about it? How does one start finding new friends and so forth when the idea of going out and doing what i did tonight fills me with dread?