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So, Monica just came to pick up her stuff and left. I felt _extremely_ akward. I knew it was very emotional for everyone in the house, and i didnt want to get in anyone's way, but i also wanted to help at the same time. hrm. I also feel a little mad at her, however, the issues that i am unhappy about are completely out of my (and her's for the most part) control, so i do not "blame" her for anything. Ultimately we must all do what we must to live our lives in a way that is best for us not other people. I just hope that this was the best thing for her to do with her life. I wish her the best. I am also feeling guilty for being happy that she left because now I get my own room instead of sharing wth the boy or sleeping on the couch.

Monica, I send good energies this way and I hate that I feel like I am taking your place in this house (im not but, I kinda fell like i am with moving into the room and all)...I wish you well and hope you are happy in your new phase of life.

be well.

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czarzhan
Jul. 9th, 2006 10:29 pm (UTC)
You have nothing to feel awkward about, sweety. Although her departure coincided with your arrival, the two had no other connection. It also led to the happy circumstance that you have a room of your own while you seek out your own place. (When you find get your own place, the wife and I can gt down to preparing the room for the coming baby. :)
tyleet1047
Jul. 10th, 2006 08:10 pm (UTC)
i detected unexplained drama in this post - narf?
( 2 Tummy Rubs — Pet Angela? )